Ch…ch…ch…changes…

Oh yes! This has been a season of so many changes. Not just for me but for all of us. 2020 will likely go down in the books as one of the strangest years in history. There’s been so much loss, grief, change (good and bad, personal and communal), and uncertainty. Some days it feels like living with metastatic breast cancer is a microcosm of the greater narrative of which we are all a part.

For us the changes came fast and furious beginning this summer. My cancer situation has become more complicated, and we discerned that major lifestyle changes needed to happen. First, my beloved husband decided to leave administrative ministry to return to the parish. God opened the way for us to become part of an amazing congregation in Maryland. This turn of events also enabled us to live right next to the place where the Susquehanna River flows into the Chesapeake Bay, complete with a healing and gorgeous water view. Already I feel more centered and grounded and embraced by community. This move has also put us two hours closer to MD Anderson Cancer Center–Cooper where I am now being treated.

We are grateful to family and friends who helped us pack up our Harrisburg house, which sold four days after going on the market. We are thankful for the many, many prayers, notes, cards, and kind words extended during this transition time. Of course, we both miss many good friends, neighbors, and colleagues, along with our church family at Christ Lutheran on Allison Hill.

Here’s what the last couple of months have taught me:

  1. Change rarely happens without some level of pain and risk.

2. Living in the present moment is really the only feasible option. The past cannot be recaptured, and the future is uncertain (but filled with possibility).

3. If you’re not willing to take risks you won’t get very far, and you just may miss out on the universe’s calling for you.

4. Life is filled with beauty, awe, and wonder, but we have to pay attention to see it. And, we need to practice gratitude.

5. The world will always try to sell us fear and anger, but the movement of the cosmos is toward love and unity. Lean in to one another and learn from your differences, celebrate your commonalities, and build bridges.

6. Connect. Connect. Connect. We are better together than we are apart.

7. Love wins. Every. Single. Time.